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you can't turn back

because this road is all you'll ever have

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Friday, November 28, 2008;

it's been a week since i last blogged.
a lot of things have been happening.
i shall just say it here.
the month of november hasn't been good, to me.
perhaps, it's worst month of this year, so far.

the 2 people who looked after me when my parents go to work passed away.
the 2 good and strong people.

the first one was the grandmother. although we're not related through blood, she treated me as one of her own. maybe even better! she passed away on the 5th of november.
it was a sudden and shocking news for me because i have not met her for super long okay. last time i met her was last year hari raya! this year, we decided to skip her house due to time constraint as my dad gotta leave for work again. it sucks to find out that the person whom you love most just passed away without you by their side. i even heard that months and weeks leading up to her death, she's been asking for me and 2 of her other granddaughters(my god sisters) coz we grew up almost together. ill still remember, in the past i would drop by her place during every single holiday and will play games with the 2 sisters(now aged 13 and 8). now, it's just history.

you might asked me why didn't i call them. well honestly, i have no idea why i didn't. perhaps i keep having this fear that what if i call them and they've already passed away that kind of thing. the next thing i know, it really happens.

so it took me quite some time to stand on my feet again. constantly thinking that it is all a dream, even till now. but oh well. so like 2 weeks after her departure, the grandfather got admitted to hospital after constant vomitting. i was lucky enough to be able to visit him last friday at CGH. he seems lively, still remember who i am at such an old age. ill always remember his smile on that day coz that was the last time i saw him smiling.

on 25th November, tuesday, morning as i was getting ready for school, my mom told me he passed away already. i was super shocked okay. but it still has't hit me yet. i went to school but i was exceptionally quiet on that day. i didn't do anything. sorry bibi and hui ting for asking you all to complete the work. after SWEN, i left school, went home changed and off to the place. well, that's where it began. 20 days ago was the grandmother, today's the grandfather.
like super sucky arh, haven't even heal from the first fall then kena the second.

oh well, eversince then i learn that we should not take things for granted. i've learnt my lesson. never wait until the end to cherish your loved ones.

on another note, i've been busy with tests, submissions, presentations, projects etc. block teaching is not good!

i'm going for a 2days 1 night camp tml. hope to come back with more photos! :) camps and outings are the only way for me to distract myself. seriously. december is here. freaking passed.

i screamed at 8:53 PM with 0 piles of homework left