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Monday, October 01, 2007;

*pissed*

sometimes i wish skool starts NOW! i mean like im sick and tired of being at home and rotting to death. and since its fasting month, i have to be more holy. well honestly, that is so not me. but hey! i tried to be holy okay. at least ive started praying 5 times a day. LOL. but that's not the point! the point is im sick and tired of getting sins when i can be spared from it!

1. i lied coz i have to lie! if i didnt, i dunno how would things turn out to be
2. my parents forced me to be holy. fine, its the fastin month so i have to be holy. but hey i do have my limits k. i dun see a point in going to mosque every morning and night. i mean i can pray at home wad. and if we pray at home as a family, wouldnt it be better?
3. if they didnt force me to be holy, i wouldnt have to lie or even starts cursing, well not curse them though. i mean, you see, im not tryin to be rude here. but its really getting out of hand. just coz i dun have exams/ school now i have to be freakin holy and follow them go mosque every day and night. im sure if there's skool, they wont ask me to go. get the point. they want me to do those things coz i got nothing to do.
4. ok maybe being in sps has made me unholy a little. but hey at least i still can differentiate what's right and what's wrong. im old enough to know whats good and what's bad for me. plus i noe wad should i do. i noe the ywan me to be holy so that im safe in the afterworld. but, there's no need for me to be over holy.
5. dad likes to compare me with other teens at mosque. like we're totally in 2 different worlds! i dun like being compared to someone holier than me. i mean it's not much of a use coz i wont really feel bad or anything coz i noe ive done the more important stuffs.
6. im grateful that i have parents like them. yes they love me and been giving me a good life. but hey. im really not prepared to be over holy now. seriously. it has limits. so God, please move the time faster till hari raya and skool reopens. ive sin enough. the only way for me to sin less is to get away from all these things. 1 thing is to either break fast outside, go to work or go to skool! pls start skool like tml or sth!

this post has nothing gotta do with scolding my parents or anything. if you read properly it's more to me describing my feelings and why i do things that is sinful. it has nothing gotta do with any other human being other than me and just me. thanks for understanding.

i screamed at 9:58 PM with 0 piles of homework left