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don't look up just let them think

there's no place else you'd rather be in now

you can't turn back

because this road is all you'll ever have

Music saves our souls

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If you let me I could, I'd show you how to build your fences

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007;

going back to skool today was alright and normal i guess. just that still had the after effect of the medicine so i seemed to be a bit tired in the morning. but throughout the whole day my throat wasnt feeling good but i tried to be my usual self in class. coz i miss being my usual self for the past few days. and oh ya first thing in the morning while i was with bibi and wee wee at the bus stop "eh fifi, you noe arh yesterday we all sabo u become class rep le! " den im like "thanks arh!" haha. actually to think abt it its not that bad right? okay la. coz somehow or rather its kinda similar to becoming a secretary. talking abt it, meroy called the other day to ask me if im keen in being the alumni band secretary. my immediate answer was "sure thing! haha"

DCNK lab was alright. was kinda slow at first but can arh. and that amanda is seriously makin me her next target! walao. im not as bad as hong wee okay! haha. lab ended 1 hour later. had early break. ate talked laughed. went for lecture. den comm skill tutorial which started off with the library week thingy which was kinda boring and sleepy. -_- den some summing up den finish! went home, slacked den met penguin for dinner. it seem like a weekly routine to meet for dinner. haha. okay so here i am.

eh people, go for SPSMB alumni concert le! buy tix from me!!

thanks huiting for the lollipop!

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Tuesday, October 30, 2007;

ok firstly thank you guys who asked if im feeling better. really appreciate it. especially Adrian aka Lao Da who send me a copy of the labwork so that i wont be left behind. thank you once again. haha.

on sun had family gathering at paman isa's house. it was de usual arh. food was great. and was watching the video that paman isa recorded while we were younger and OMFG, i cant believe i was liddat den. my voice was high pitch and i was damn fat.LOL. oh well, those were the days. den they showed pics and videos involving my late grandparents, it was so memorable and i still felt my grandma's presence. oh well.

yesterday, woke up i felt i wasnt feeling that well but insist that i go to skool. den on the bus to skool the aircon was freaking cold so i got worst. during lab i wasnt paying attention. so i decided to go home after that. went doctor, got 2days MC. haha. so i didnt go to skool today. all i did was eat watch tv sleep. damn sian. not my fault lor the medicine causes drowsiness. haha. gotta buck up on my programmin subject. okay bye people!

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Monday, October 29, 2007;

this feeling suck. oh well. get well soon lutfi!

thanks to those who cares abt me in a way or another. really really appreciate it.

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Sunday, October 28, 2007;

SPSMB Alumni proudly presents....

The Saint Patrick's School Alumni Band in Concert.
Date/ Day: 21st December 2007/ Friday
Time: 730pm
Venue: Singapre Conference Hall, near Tanjong Pagar MRT
Price: $12, free seating
Some of the pieces: Rush, X Massimo, Incredibles, Glen Miller in Concert and more!

so people, those who are interested do sms me or tag at my blog and ill get back to you asap. you wont regret going.

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Friday, October 26, 2007;

my tagboard is DEAD. haha. so people, pls tag after reading k! thank you! :)

today start lesson at 9. had basic finance tutorial. it was kinda boring. i dun really understand a thing arh. coz maybe the lecture is after the tutorial instead of beforee. okay. made some new friends but the whole class was a bit quiet. and almsot everyone is from IT skool. and 4 in the same lecture as me. okay.

after that rushed to IT block coz i thought kay howe reached alr. skali he havent reach! -_- den went for the sociology class. it was damn funny la the class. the teacher makes the subject interesting. she sound like mdm nor with the slang and a bit of nelly leslie with all the jokes. haha. den had some "ice breaking" and introduction to sociology. i didnt go for lecture yesterday coz its super late. plan to go next monday. but confirm must go early one if not the lecture damn full. like the other time.

so after sociology class went for lunch at mensa with the rest who just finish lecture/ had breaks since 11+. den went for basic finance lecture which was a waste of time. coz everything that she explain has been explained in tutorial. so it defeats the purpose. and the lecturer is kinda crazy. i dunno.

den went TM den went home.

i meant wad i said the other day... :)
and i saw you ytd! :)

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Thursday, October 25, 2007;

ok hi people. this is my 300th post. haha. nothin much these days.

yesterday went to skool at 11 for lunch with the rest. den went for DCNK lecture which only last for 16 mins coz he only go through the expectations and the usual things. so still got time to slack and we went itas to slack. had comm skill at 1pm. its quite alright actually. better than last semester. the teacher reminds me of mdm niza. haha. the slang.... -_- had some project briefing den finish at 230. den had to go for some stupid talk which was soooo boring. it wasnt as good as i expected it to be. for a moment, i rather go for vivien's programmin lecture. lol. went back at 6, met penguin at pasir ris den went for dinner and dessert. talked a lot as usual. went home slacked.

today had lecture at 9 and i was late. DCNK lecture after that was quite fun i guess. the teacher is quite interesting. and u must really pay attention to him if u lose ure concentration for even 1 min, you wont understand him alr. had 3 hour break so went mensa for brunch den went to itas to slack. it was damn funny. now each of us has a nickname. im not sayin it here! lol. went for DCNK tutorial which ended 30 mins later. didnt go for sociology lecture coz its at 6-7 so i went home. my parent's friends just left coz they drop by to visit. haha.

tomorrow skool starts at 9. zzz. and im havin basic finance. i dunno anyone who is in the same tutorial group as me! aargh! and and i have a feelin tutorial gonna finish early, like super early. coz the other time bibi and manda's accounting class only last for 30 mins out of 2hours! haha but finish skool at 3 tml! yayy. okay thats all for now! bye.

i miss you. <3
i have to keep quiet.....

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Tuesday, October 23, 2007;

first day of skool.
it was great to be in skool once again. was kinda looking forward to it. started the day or shud i say the week with programming, SUPER SIAN. den de same teacher will see us 8 hours per week coz she takin us for 2 subjects, both on programming. "Object Oriented Programming" and "Higher Object Oriented Programming". only DipIT take this 2 moduls. others just take the OOPG. -_- and so we have more workloads. they only got 1 assignment, we got 3 assignments! den CMATHS2 lecture was quite alright la. but more amaths stuffs. urgh! she ended the lecture early. thank god coz i was on high tide. haha.

had 2 hours of break. 1st hour sat with C164, second hour met up with BLACKOUTS although for awhile only. den went for programming lecture. 2 freaking hours can! was falling asleep towards the end but resist it. i need WARHEADS. den skool ended at 4.

second day of skool.
another sian day. whole day of programming, thats like 4 hours?! den apel only starts next week so skool ended at 1. met up with bibi wee wee and amanda for lunch. we talked a lot. laughed.

i miss them. haha i mean lesson is not so fun without them. coz amanda and wee wee keeps me awake during classes coz they always fight. and we laugh a lot la. like last semester's classes. oh well just hope that ms nami can do sth abt their timetable. on the other hand, im quite happy that i still have my classmates ard. haha. okay. i shall update on thurs i guess. tml lesson from 12 - 3. :)

programming is not that bad actually, right?

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Sunday, October 21, 2007;

ive decided to blog since much to do. time check: 1207am.

ok so past few days have been quite alright. shall not go into details abt each day as it may bore you readers out there. and so sat jalan raye with my family. this yr we went out late. like record liddat! haha. went to every house and eat! till i got a bit sian wit the same dishes. haha. collect duit raye. hmmm till now i have not counted how much ive received. first day went out with my dad's side. second and third day went out with my mom's. obviously going with my mom's side is more fun la. maybe coz im closer to them. oh well.

on tuesday, as i wanted to be out of house sooooo much, i went out to meet hidhir and penguin at the airport. hidhir decided to study while nick and i slack. slacked at coffee bean! wohoo. i think the belgium chocolate is nice just that it's kinda bitter! ok den went home.

on wednesday we had a semestral briefin which was DAMN DRAGGY and the course manager tried to funny and lame but cannot make it. we den celebrated lashvina and manda's birthay. firstly we blindfolded them out of LT. the main point is to mke them(especially amanda) to be so paiseh! haha. then they had to walk along the it concourse with their birthday card in their hands. den cut cake and photo taking. we bought for lash a bag while we bought for amanda elmo and a necklace! thanks to those who were present and to those who helped in a way or another. the surprise cum sabo was a SUCCESS!

on thursday received new timetable and went to work in the afternooon.

on friday worked in the morning shift with haikal which was damn funn la. den went out with my friends.

Amy and Haikal on the phone
........
Amy: ok u stay right there and ill call for help
Haikal: ok.
*Haikal puts down the phone*
Haikal: Amy say she'll call for help
2 seconds later...
Lutfi and Haikal: shouted for help impromptuly.

well nvm if u didnt get the joke.

ok on sat when for breakfast den slack at home. in the evening went to my uncle's house coz got birthday celebration cum family gathering. but apparently my parents and i reached quite late. haha. the food was nice. the people were as usual noisy and fun. i dunno why i was kinda quiet yesterday.

okay skool's starting tml. im kinda looking forward to it. my 7weeks of staying at home is ending soon. hope this semester is gonna be another great one.

here's my rough timetable.
monday: 9 - 4, 2 hours break
tuesday: 9-2, no break
wednesday: 9-3, 1 hour break Note: odd weeks 1-3pm, no break.
thursday: 9-7, 5 hours break Note: sociology lecture is at 6pm to 7pm.
friday: 9- 3, 1 hour break

the reason why im happy is that i finish skool early(quite) this semester, i got the CDS(Sociology and Basic Finance) that i wanted and have shorter breaks, except for thurs and that one also cannot be helped unless i go for the monday's lecture. ill see how lor! haha. bye!

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Thursday, October 18, 2007;

ok im not really feeling that fell so i shall keep this post short.

yesterday went back skool for semestral briefing. it's very draggy and i dun get the objective of the briefing since most of the slides they skip. and they keep emphasing abt our skool new name. like WTH. so it ended 1 hour later, supposed to be 2 hours though. den celebrate amanda's birthday which ill blog in another post. den went TM with bibi and we we den met penguin and hilmi for dinner. eat and slacked. lol.

today woke up promptly at 10 coz was "excited" abt the release of timetable. when the page was loasing, i was nervous and praying very hard that ill get the cds that i want and skool to finish early. and thank god it ended early. its much better compared to last semester's.

wentto work after that.

hmm. there's family gathering at uncle bon's house on sat. kinda lookin forward to it. the last gathering before skool starts!

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Monday, October 15, 2007;

happy birthday LASHVINA!(finally i spell your name correctly) haha. knowing you for the past 6 months have been great. especially when we're in the same CMSK group with the rest. thanks for being very resourceful, you provide almost all the info about the project! ahah. thanks for tolerating our nonsense! haha. i noe its not easy to do so. LOL. also, thanks for being such a great friend too! have a good day on your birthday! see you on wednesday!

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Friday, October 12, 2007;

happy birthday to the dearest JIE JIE AMANDA LEE. good luck in everything you do. and stop emoing! haha. knowing you for the past 6 months have been great. i mean you make the class laugh, you make me laugh! going skool is more fun with u and hong wee ard, not forgetting your husband. LOL. haha. you're so hyper, funny and i like makin fun of you, in a friendly way(oops did i just make it so obvious?) haha hope you like the collage above especially the centre-most pic. im so sorry i cant celebrate your birthday with you TODAY coz im celebratin hari raya. cheer up kayz!

yours sincerely,
Lutfi

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okay im back blogging again. firstly hapy birthday BENJAMIN. haha. okay so yesterday was kinda nice. shall not blog abt it coz its kinda draggy. (IDIOT, you shud noe wad im talking abt).

today was another spring cleaning day. and i was super pissed la, still am though. den collected my specs at tamp den went for work. met ridzwan mitchell nat and marcus at tm. work was kinda fun coz was working with faz so we talk quite a lot. and i saw my eye candie. :) den went home.

okay raya is tml. well i dunno how im feeling right now. guess this yr gonna be an emotional raya for me. well im not gonna say why. if u wan noe ask me. sigh. it suddenly reminds me of my late nyai(grandma). sigh. by now, the usual cousins which is me fatin khairin fiqin and faheem would be at nyai's house alr. we usually stayover like few days before raya if there's no skool. if not, at least 2 nights before. den the day before raya which is tml, we'll be awake early in the morning, but ill be the last to be awake usually. lol. to help her put in the rice inside the ketupat leaf den prepare de fire. i mean its so fun la. although its a yearly routine. i never feel bored of doing it. but now, after 4 years, we wont get to do it again. sigh. nyai, we miss you. we'll always pray for you. amen.

and today 1 yr ago, is my last day of skool and is also firday the 13th! the day that i get my prelims result and the day i get scolded by ms nor like fuck coz of my art. seriously. haha. but oh well. she's kinda happy with my artwork in the end so its alright. okay. i got nothing much to say.

please do not think too much. read my msn sub nick. please cheer up.
talkin to you makes my day. :)

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Tuesday, October 09, 2007;

aww man. i really wan skool to start tml. like super desperate for it. i just wn to go to skool, no projects though. hang out with classmates and iitsc pple. stayin at home is driving me nuts. yes. my life evolve ard sleeping, tv, clean house, getting nag at and not forgetting, be holy. urgh. i really dun like this man. i mean its really too much. cant i enjoy the last few days of my hols before sem 2 starts. thats why i hate it when fasting month is during hols. sometimes i wish im havin o levels this yr. den i wont get nagged this much. urgh!

this morning i woke up due to my dad's "alarm clock". first thing in the morning he came into my room woke me up and "command" me to clean the house. yes command is the appropriate word. he says as if i didnt do my part to clean the house when actually on sunday i cleaned my house's window, bring down the curtains and change my chair's cover. like wth right. who wouldnt be pissed. den when i wanna go out alr he was like "where are you going, you havent clean the house yet" when actually i cleaned the frame and the metal thingy. it was suppsoed to be his job coz my mom clearly told me that he'll do it. den when i didnt clean it nicely, he say its still not shiny enough and asked me to clean it when i come home. like WTF.

another thing. i realised that this yr's fastin month i didnt really eat with my family. why? coz almost everyday my parents will be breaking fast at the mosque. and my dad even asked me to go mosque for break fast. like, no! i rather break fast alone la. like wad's wrong with breaking fast at home. why must go to the mosque. den i told my mom la. "if go to mosque to break fast also dad will be his clique and ill be left alone (coz my cliques dun really go mosque that often) so whats the point. isnt it the same as me breaking fast at home.?! "

dun get me wrong, im not trying to be a bitch here or to bitch abt my parents or to be rude to them, but hey sometimes your patience has its limits. im just statin my point of view abt my current daily life. so yeah hope you guys understand.

and so on sunday i went out with farah, like finally! haha. ate ice cream at swensens coz apparently i owe her 2 treats. and so we were cathing up on lots of stuffs la. the "not to be mention stuffs" and she also taught me something! haha.

"do you noe that one way to not grow fat is to eat slowly. because your brain will register that your body is full only after 20 mins. thats why when we eat fast, we tend not to be full yet but in actual fact our body is full just that it hasnt register the word "full" in the brain. lol. that's why we shud eat slowly coz by 20 mins we'll start feeling full"

haha well thats what farah told me la. coz she say she was doing research and came across that.

yesterday went to cut my hair. fuck i look so f ing weird. i asked the uncle to shorten my fringe he go cut my whole fringe. and now im like fringe-less. urgh. what a wrong time to have a weird haircut! never am i going to that shop again. the reason why i went to that shop coz the shop that i usually go for my haircut had a long queue. lol. so yeah. "see lah last min somemore" i bought a new specs whice wil be ready on thurs. its something different la. and i bought a hari raya shoe also. okay. i think thats all for now.

sorry ar, just trying to blog in colours. like so fun liddat. lol

will you ever notice me? <3
you never fail to put a smile on my face..

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Sunday, October 07, 2007;

if only there's someone in this whole whom i can tell my everything and understand how i feel.
oh well.

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wohoo. yesterday geylang bazaar outing was a success and supef fun. it was filled with laughter and jokes. it was nice to see almost everyone again. catch up with each other. so we met at abt 545. i was the last even though im like the organizer! *paiseh* den we walked toward haig road ther to find a place for break fast. had mee goreng for break fast which is kinda not nice. den hilmi and darwin came. den we bought ramly burger coz most of us werent full. den we walk walk. it was super crowded and was filled with shoutin. haha and we join in the shoutings. den after that headed to coffee bean to slack before proceeding to sempang bedok. had supper but i didnt eat anything. den talk more den went home with aidil and hilmi. sorry thats just a rough update coz i kinda lazy write in detail.

reached home was msn conferencin with bibi and manda. damn funny la we talk. haha. manda remember the bet! haha. 2 against 1. haha. okay gonna do some other things now. haha.

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Saturday, October 06, 2007;

I'VE SURVIVED! haha. i've survived working with manager for 3 nights in a row! initially i wasnt really looking forward to it la. coz he looks kinda strict and stuffs but it turn out to be quite alright. the only thing is that have to do work non stop and my feet hurts la. haha. anyway it's over, for now! so on tuesday evening met up with nick after break fast den we went white sands played some arcade. quite fun la destress abit. den saw black and golden pussy plus other intsc pple. den headed down to downtowneast coz he wanted to play some "dunno what game" and buy subway home.

wed thur and fri i was working in the evening.

Hari raya's next week. kinda looking forward to it. but still got lots of things need to be done. like
clean my room, AGAIN
buy more tops for skool
buy new shoe for skool
cut hair
buy new specs and contacts
and some other stuffs.
okay i dunno what else to blog about. haha. oh ya i feel like going korea! i love korea, especially the dramas and hilmi, you'll noe why! :)
so here's my "schedule for coming week"
sat: geylang outing with almadil and other mats
sun: geylang outing with farah plus supper!
mon: going out with my mom most prob
tues: meeting some of my class people
wed: going out with penguin ck and hilmi(i think)
thurs: working with faz
fri: -
sat: HARI RAYA!
okay gotta go and do some other stuffs now.

what if your bestfriend is dating your ex?

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Monday, October 01, 2007;

*pissed*

sometimes i wish skool starts NOW! i mean like im sick and tired of being at home and rotting to death. and since its fasting month, i have to be more holy. well honestly, that is so not me. but hey! i tried to be holy okay. at least ive started praying 5 times a day. LOL. but that's not the point! the point is im sick and tired of getting sins when i can be spared from it!

1. i lied coz i have to lie! if i didnt, i dunno how would things turn out to be
2. my parents forced me to be holy. fine, its the fastin month so i have to be holy. but hey i do have my limits k. i dun see a point in going to mosque every morning and night. i mean i can pray at home wad. and if we pray at home as a family, wouldnt it be better?
3. if they didnt force me to be holy, i wouldnt have to lie or even starts cursing, well not curse them though. i mean, you see, im not tryin to be rude here. but its really getting out of hand. just coz i dun have exams/ school now i have to be freakin holy and follow them go mosque every day and night. im sure if there's skool, they wont ask me to go. get the point. they want me to do those things coz i got nothing to do.
4. ok maybe being in sps has made me unholy a little. but hey at least i still can differentiate what's right and what's wrong. im old enough to know whats good and what's bad for me. plus i noe wad should i do. i noe the ywan me to be holy so that im safe in the afterworld. but, there's no need for me to be over holy.
5. dad likes to compare me with other teens at mosque. like we're totally in 2 different worlds! i dun like being compared to someone holier than me. i mean it's not much of a use coz i wont really feel bad or anything coz i noe ive done the more important stuffs.
6. im grateful that i have parents like them. yes they love me and been giving me a good life. but hey. im really not prepared to be over holy now. seriously. it has limits. so God, please move the time faster till hari raya and skool reopens. ive sin enough. the only way for me to sin less is to get away from all these things. 1 thing is to either break fast outside, go to work or go to skool! pls start skool like tml or sth!

this post has nothing gotta do with scolding my parents or anything. if you read properly it's more to me describing my feelings and why i do things that is sinful. it has nothing gotta do with any other human being other than me and just me. thanks for understanding.

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