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don't look up just let them think

there's no place else you'd rather be in now

you can't turn back

because this road is all you'll ever have

Music saves our souls

The tunes go here.

If you let me I could, I'd show you how to build your fences

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Saturday, May 31, 2008;

sometimes the person that will turn against you
is your closest friend ever.
no point emoing.
that's life.

everyone is in a way or another individualistic.
just like you.
and you.

i screamed at 3:06 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Friday, May 30, 2008;

today's psycho lesson was.... a waste of time.
we didn't even focus on script writing la!
like WTH.
so after lesson went to CDC with hong wee.
top up my account den met mitchell and ian.
WOW after such a long time.
i was SUPER late.
was supposed to meet at 2.
i reached tamp at 245.

had sakae buffet.
talked.
catch up.
it's so fun la.
den slacked somewhere.

i couldn't sleep yesterday so i wrote this.

Life is so unpredictable.
One moment you can be close friends.
de next moment you became sworn enemies.
One moment you like someone.
de next moment you hate him.
One moment you keep his secret.
de next moment you backstab him.
One moment you knew each other.
de next moment you became strangers.
One moment you accept him for his weaknesses.
de next moment you complain about his weaknesses.
One moment you accept him for who he is.
de next moment you hope he'll change to suit your reputation.
One moment is Hi.
de next moment is bye.

and how i wish we can be close again. (:

and and!!
my mom just asked me what is Ministry of Sound.
she said her friend ask her go tml.
im super stunned!
haha!

i screamed at 9:51 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Wednesday, May 28, 2008;

i was actually in the mood to study.
HOWEVER, upon going online, my mood changes.
haha.
so there goes; another evening being wasted not studying.
oh well.
i should really buck up and have more discipline!!!
term test is next week.
I CAN DO IT.

sometimes i really wonder what makes things turn this way.
i know there are loop holes.
but i just can't seem to think of any possibilities.
it just happen too quickly and shockingly.
really.

i just hope the "conflict" around me can come to an end soon.
it just so sad to see things turn this way as well.
i guess i'm not the only one who has these "friendship" problems.
sigh.

and and i'm SO fucking broke can.
i got lots of overdue stuffs to buy/ pay.
zzzzzzz!
oh well.
i kinda miss OLTC and week 0.
i miss being high with the rest.
now the only high people are only the usual people.
oh well.

i screamed at 9:30 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Tuesday, May 27, 2008;

assignment submissions are over, for now at least.
but still, there's no time for me to slack.
next week is the term test.
i cannot fail. i hope!
urgh. holiday's coming.
so fast.

oh they're having the election for SU and the SC.
went voting just now.
wish all of those taking part all the best!

these few days have been tiring.
apart from workload, i think the weather plays a role.
sian.
today for the first time ever,
i almost fell asleep in DBSY.
okay maybe coz it's SOOO boring.
and i didn't go for OOAD again.
oh well.

gotta start studying for term test!!!

and there seems to be a lot of conflict going on.
sigh.

i screamed at 10:38 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Monday, May 26, 2008;

oh it was fake.........

i screamed at 11:53 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Saturday, May 24, 2008;

i was shocked.
tears started rolling down my eyes.
yes, it's not right for a boy to cry.
especially in public.
but i just can't help it.
boys DO HAVE feelings aswell.
FUCK OFF IF YOU THINK BOYS CAN'T CRY WHEN THEY'RE DOWN.

there's nothing else for me to say.
whatever that has been said left me speechless.
there's nothing i can do abt it.

i'm sad.
i would be lying if i say i don't feel anything.

i thought after all the project submissions,
i could end this week on a happy note.
but i was wrong.

i will not care about you and them if you don't want me to.

i screamed at 10:53 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Friday, May 23, 2008;

walking home from pasir ris interchange seems to be my new daily routine,
that if i take 15 home.
it's great actually to just walk home.
and for the past 3 times that i walked home,
i met 3 different primary school friends of mine.
on tuesday i met Dayanah,
yesterday i met Shawn.
today i met Ili.
hmm, i wonder who i'll meet next.

teh double chocolate i bought from DTE and white sand's McCafe taste different.
i prefer the one from DTE. :)

today marks the end of a stressful school week.
been staying in school till at least 530 to complete projects.
i really dun understand why CSAD report must be so long winded.
we printed out 68 pages of report plus binding and it cost $19.20.
we were fucking shock! really.
coz they require colour for some.
like oh please. it's only phase 1.
and someone said that the report it's nothing.
later on will be worst.
oh god, we shall see!

and yeah, i passed Basic theory.
special thanks to BIBI for the last min tips.
i think i would have had failed without your tips.
and the FTT is like 2 months away! sian...
let's just hope i can pass it at 1 go.
and THANKS TO WEE WEE AKA THE BITCH FOR CURSING ME.

and waiting for the results to appear was even more nervous than waiting for JAVA to compile.
ok irrelevant.
ok shall rest now.
TIRED LA.

i screamed at 8:06 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Tuesday, May 20, 2008;

after school i took 15 to pasir ris interchange(one of the usual routines)
but instead of changing to another bus, i decided to walk home.
bought banana milk tea, use to be one of my favourites, especially the one from parkway!
and walked home.
walked through the PR time park.
it was nice and relaxing actually.
seeing people joggin, fishing or just relaxing.
suddenly i had flashbacks of the good old days.
when i was in primary school.
how i hated 1.6, and thinking that it's bad enough.
haha. walked past my primary school.
everything just comes back!

oh well.
another reason why i walked home was coz i needed time off
from the computer.
and relax my mind from all the assignments.
oh well. 2 more days to the deadline.
and i doubt im going VJ concert tml.
sorry hidhir, will pay you for the tix soon.

i'm so in love with ben & jerry's strawberry cheesecake and
new york super fudge chunk ice cream. :D

i screamed at 9:50 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Monday, May 19, 2008;

DOUBLE SURPRISEEEEEE!!!
yesterday was a blast.
beware, lots of photos for this post.
it's been a long time since i last post a blog post with lots of photos.
:)

and so yesterday was, as written above the double surprise.
objective was to celebrate madeni's farewell and also hilmi's 21st birthday.
and so the event was glamorously held at..

The Fullerton Hotel

no, we're not rich asses.
we just save up for this event so that
it'll be a memorable one for mad and hilmi.
and so me, alan and aidil met up first.
went to the hotel first to settle some reservation stuffs
before Hilmi and Nick met up with us.
we slacked and discuss abt the plan.
hilmi left to meet mad, while i was supposedly late.
slacked a while before meeting them at the black bird at boat quay.
it was quite stressful for me.
the thing is, Hilmi thinks we're celebrating Madeni's farewell.
whereas Madeni thinks that we're celebrating Hilmi's birthday.
so i had to be careful of what i say to ensure that i don't leak out any information.
so as to buy time, i suggested camwhoring and claiming that i'm tired of walking.
reason being: i took 36 to city hall and walked to VCH to pass some stuff to SAJC people
before meeting them.
i won't be so dumb as to take bus all the way from home to go to VCH. :D
cam whoring sessions..

haha. den headed to the hotel.
i needed the toilet(part of the plan)
so after received confirmation from aidil, i brought them to the place.
before that, we had another camwhore session in the hotel.

after camwhoring, i brought them to the restaurant.
i told madeni to take the photos of the interior restaurant.
he was like "can go in liddat meh?"
den walk walk walk, "Surprise!"
he was shocked at that point of time and 15 mins following that.
he couldn't believe that he fell for our trick.

"i was in shock for a good 15 min. and everyone was practically thrilled that i was for once, the dumb blonde. (usually, its hilmi)"

and so since all of us were hungy, we started eating.
obviously we try as much not to be a kiasu singaporean in a 7-star hotel.
the food were superb.
it was worth it.
the salmon were shiok. :)
and we ate and cam whored, ate and cam whored.

den comes the second surprise...
Aidil specially baked a birthday cake for hilmi.
it's marble cake with nutella coating.
but it taste more like a confuse cake rather than a marble cake.
nevermind, A for effort! :)

and so after eating a lot,
we walked ard the hotel.
took photos, laughed.
gosh i miss those times where we meet up alost every single weekend.
now, to have a full attendance meet up is very hard.

off to clubbing after that. plus supper!
photo of the week:

i screamed at 10:02 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Sunday, May 18, 2008;

haha ok i would like to wish happy birthday to...

My mom(17th May)

and

Hilmi!(18th May)

hmm soo, past few days was nothing much.
just rushing through projects which will be due on thurday.
all on the same day.
thanks uh.

going out later for some celebration till tml morning.
so i better go get more sleep!
haha. :D

i screamed at 11:54 AM with 0 piles of homework left

Tuesday, May 13, 2008;

life's been pretty busy today and yesterday.
both days rushing through projects projects and more projects.
2.1 really suck.
everything is like so rush.
i dun understand why must they push everything in week 5.
every semester, there's always 1 submission, at least, in week 5.
but this sem, 2 submissions, 1 presentation.
fuck fuck fuck.

i wanna be a freshie again.
really.
i wanna go back to 1.1.
it's less hectic than now.
and things ard me arent helping either.
oh well i just hope everything goes on well.
and hoping that she don't scream at us tml.
*praying hard*

i screamed at 10:19 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Sunday, May 11, 2008;

okay im back.
yesterday's class outing was rather a success.
just that i hope the class could be more sporty and enthu.
oh well.
will blog abt it when i get all the photos from MS JANE JUMARI

anyway, life will be hectic in the next 2 weeks.
2 project reviews
1 project presentation
1 project submission
2 birthdays
2 celebrations
1 concert
1 test(BTT)
2 quiz deadline
study for TERM TEST
and yeah, that's how hectic it will be.
plus school's being a total ass by starting at 9 everyday except friday.

i can't afford to neglect in this semester
i must fight the battle like everyone else
we should not give up
although holiday will only commence in september,
i can feel that it'll come soon.
coz time passes very fast.
that's the bad part.
if time passes very fast, we won't have time to breathe.

GOSH, it is only semester 2.1 and we're facing such a hectic and crazy workload.
i wonder how 2.2 will be like.

perhaps you should be more indipendent.
oh well, tml is the start of the hectic week.

i screamed at 9:31 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Thursday, May 08, 2008;

the workload for this semester is not as good as i thought.
at first glance at the workload chart, yes everything seems to be spreaded out easily.
HOWEVER,
there are little details that is not stated in there.
1 day of not going school and woah!
i was shocked by lots of assignment news today.
CSAD and DBSY, which is due in week 12 and 14 respectively,
have to be handed in in week 5!!
WTF.
the tutors wanna see the process.
so now im kanchiong-ing.
even though the assignment is group work, it is still hard.
we did OOAD today but still quite hard.
but okay la abt 40% done.
aaaarrrggghhh! im so kanchiong.
lots of things coming up.
especially the next 2 weeks.
i just hope time can slow down.
really.

to be honest, i feel that i don't really have a proper and stable best friend now.
everyone is just close, but it hasn't reach the "best friend" level.
i've lost 2 of my best friends.
what now?

okok putting my lower braces tml.
will update again soon!

i screamed at 10:17 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Tuesday, May 06, 2008;

i really do hope the class outing will be a success.
*praying hard*

anyway, quite sad la.
things have to turn out this way.
neither stranger nor friend.
so what's next?

and i guess im not the only one.
oh well.
lot's of things coming up this month!
not forgetting the assignment.

and i think OOAD lecture is a waste of time.
the lectures are either the last or the first lesson of the day! -_-
and i go also not say i pay attention.
i think the only lecture that i'll chao is OOAD.
maybe CSAD too, depending on the lecturer.
i'm not confident of passing for OOAD.
the rest is still kinda understandable.
oh well..
term test in 1 more month!

i guess it has passed.

and it's nice to see my freshies ard.
especially now when they're busy with assignments and stuffs.
just now saw the guys outside bookshop.
they were doing tutorial.
cool huh.
unlike me.
i only do cmaths tutorial before class!

i screamed at 9:55 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Monday, May 05, 2008;

past week have been alright.
much better than the previous week.
much MUCH better.

so on labour day a few of us went to Sentosa.

well it was supposed to be 6 of us,
but 2 got held up with other stuffs so only 4 went.
initially was kinda disappointed at first
since we've been planning for this day.
but then, i've got to understand them.
so yeah.
the 4 of us who went weren't that bad afterall.
we had loads of fun.
meeting time was 9 and the person who's late will have to treat the rest to food.
the "punishment" was actually meant for Hilmi and i
coz everytime there's a meetup, we'll be late.
especial Hilmi *grins*
i was the first to reach vivo.
reached at 830! wohooo. RECORD!
hilmi was the last to reach.
late by 10 mins.
we bought food and other stuffs and proceeded to Sentosa.

ate, slack, emo, swim, talked.
not forgething, sunburnt!
stayed till 3 den changed.
proceeded to Vivo to walk ard.
God Mom called because she thought she saw me on a bus,
which apparently wasn't me.
headed down to plaza.

Aidil, being his usual self, forced us to drop by Spotlight. -_-
had dinner at long john's, hilmi left.
the 3 of us then headed to raffles city for the Robinson sale.
we overshot the bus stop so had to walk quite a bit.
walked, cam-whored, ~~talked~~ crapped

walked ard at robinson, den went home!

Friday went to watch Forbidden Kingdom.
nice movie la.
i thought it was a crap show at first!

Saturday was the long awaited Cousins' outing.
went to parkway to rent some DVDs(the doll master, sisters' act, Mrs Doubtfire)
classic? i think so too.
headed down to our grandfather's road for lunch.
Nasi Lemak!
cam whored at some nearby place.

off to island creamery.

woah i just love the ice cream there.
watched the movies, play with kitten plus dinner cooked by khairin.

meet my cousin's new kitten. they've yet to give her a name so i suggested "Nurul" because the 2 owners also name Nurul. haha. LAME.
off at 10.

yesterday i was a good boy and stayed at home because i need to save money!

top photo of the week: COUSINS ~ when we were younger

i screamed at 10:31 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Thursday, May 01, 2008;

Sentosa today was fun.
just what i need after almost 2 weeks of stress.
school workload and personal stuffs.
will update about the Sentosa event as soon as i get hold of the photos.

sometimes i wonder whether promises are meant to be kept.
and whether we will get what we wish and dream for.
looking at things now, i doubt so.

tomorrow, a stupid 2hour tutorial and 1 hour lecture that spoils my supposedly-long weekend.
if only labour day's on a Friday.

i guess it's really passing.
(:
i will get over it ASAP.

i screamed at 11:18 PM with 0 piles of homework left