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Friday, October 27, 2006;

Just finish studying for 5 hours, with break obviously.. gonna take a break while having dinner.. o levels is next week, wed art.. and im only done with 2 sketches.. but noe wad.. haha.. I can complete it coz I every tried completing it within one day and still got my A.. but a bit risky so started earlier.. haha.. don wanna risk my potential A..

okay I feel like blogging abt hari raya..

and so the day started with me going mosque in the morning for some prayers.. and for de first time my uncle and I were early.. we reached at 650.. everytime, we’ll reach abt 715 and the mosque would be pack with people.. after prayers come back home, slack, eat and prepare to go out.. this yr my family wear cream white.. damn nice! Den ask for forgiveness and proceed st8 to my aunt’s house in tampines. Was the 2nd family to reach. And so my cousin and I started chatting.. they asking me abt o level and stuff.. den 3rd and 4th family reached and so we continue talking and the house was damn noisy coz teens talk to teens, small cousin crying, aunties talking out loud etc. den phototaking even though not everyone was there. And it was sooo ‘kecoh’, or also known as noisy like market.. the females will be like ‘eh nanti nanti tudung aku tak betul’, ‘eh cepatla’, ‘smile’.. in translation ‘ eh my tudung not properly worn’ and ‘faster can’.. haha.. den left for my paternal grand parents house at bedok. Eat den continue visiting. Cant deny all the food were nice but I felt sick of it coz almost every house had the same food (ketupat/ lontong, rending, some gravy and blah blah) so practically I have to eat a bit at each house so that at least I eat in every house without making the house owner feel bad coz I didn’t eat.. anyway.. yeah collected a lot of $ but still haven’t finish collection.. den was too tired went back at 10pm, earliest as compared to other years 1st day of hari raya. One reason perhaps didn’t have much mood to celebrate coz o levels just round de corner. Like ms manisah said in her hari raya greeting “Enjoy today, tomorrow go study hard again!” haha..

but then on wed study a bit only coz I play host to my cousins who are from KL. Coz my dad sis and mom work so I had to accompany them a while.. so brought them to Esplanade took some photos den met my mom at airport to have lunch at swensens. After that they went visiting I went home and study again. Study till 12 am..lol.. to make up..

yesterday was a slack day.. study a bit, did art a bit den went bras basah buy copic markers for art den went skool see them having prac for a while den de usual people with the sec 2s this time went Suki Sushi. It was so noisy la aiyo.. so paiseh. Stayed till 530 den went home. Went home study again til 12.

Today woke up went for mosque, lunch den study from 330 – 7 den did art from 730 till 9. so here I am blogging. Gonna study again later after dinner.. yeah..

Oh ya heard next yr’s subject comb is quite interesting (that’s if I get it correct)
3E1: Eng, E A Maths, Phy, Chem, Bio, Comb humans, mt
3E2: Eng, E A Maths, Phy, Chem, Pure Geog, Comb humans, mt
3E3: Eng, E Maths, (phy, chem.), Pure Lit, mt, comb humans, A Maths or bio
3E4 and 3E5 not too sure but I guess abt the same as mine..
k la for those of you who got promoted and those who managed to get into the classes you want, congrats, those who didn’t, its not the end of the world yet.
Those taking O/ A levels, all the best!

i screamed at 9:16 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Thursday, October 26, 2006;

i am 76% bad in school

[x] you have gotten F9 grades for math(or you meana "U" grade?)
[x] you always do last min hmks in class
[x] you use ur handphone to text ur friends inclass
[x] you phone got confiscated before
[ ] you listen to ur mp3, cd player in class
[x] you sleep in class
[x] you curse teachers
[x]you are always late for extra classes
[x] you doodle on tables
[ ] you make out in class
[x] you are rebbellious with some teachers
[x] you always hand up work late
[ ] you make fun of the nerds and geeks.
[x] you have broken school rules
[ ]you always dun have the correct books
[ ]you dun take notes
[x] recess is your favourite part ofschool
[x] you hang out after school
[x] you lie to ur teachers about hmks
[x] you tell ur parents that u dont have hmks,when u actually do
[x] u have made someone cry in school
[x] you copied hmks before
[x] you threw away hmks before and lie that udidnt recieve it first of all
[x] you laugh at the way some teacherswalk
[ ] you have been late couple of times

i screamed at 9:39 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Wednesday, October 18, 2006;

ok hmm.. so on sunday after break fast did my art all they way till 3am on monday morning.. den slept and woke up at 6 to go to skool coz need to be there by 7.. went staffroom.. my heart was beating ver fast can coz im not sure if she's gonna accept my work.. den reach staffroom was very scared alr lor den she asked me opened it.. den i did den she was like "thank god u did a miracle.. im so proud of myself for shouting at you.. the lowest you'll get is a B3.. thank you.. you should thank me for shouting at you like wahateevr.. *sigh of relief* den went art room. den saw the rest of de skool having mornbing assembly.. now i noe why mr lak forever kao pei with de skooll.. haha.. can see everyone stoning or just moving their mouth.. including of mr lak's out of tune singing.. aargh! den did some touch ups.. den was damn tiring go up go down look for teacher.. den fasting somemore.. den 12pm mr lak inspected our work den 2 got rejected den must drop.. very sad sia.. i noe how it feels coz im on de verge of being asked to drop also! okay whatever after that my parents fect h me den we went buy bottled drinks for hari raya den went my aunt's workplace to survey laptop and yupp.. got 1.. den drop by grandma's place den headed home and sleep!

yesterday went skool at 1030 coz was supposed to help her do something den she last minute say dun nee dso practically wasted my time! den walked ard did nothing den pasted names on our boards den headed for SEAB.. den got quite a few skool there la.. den got one skool all did on porcelain.. den headed back with only 4 of us coz de rest left from SEAB. met hidhir and CK at parkway den cut hair at TM.. reached home just in time for break fast..

and OMG im so addicted to this show.. its like de more i watched de more i wanna contnuing watching.. but i only watch it late at night after studying and stuufs.. haha.. den will sleep at 3am! but its sooo nice.. im addicted to it.. haha..

i miss you.. <3

i screamed at 11:34 AM with 0 piles of homework left

Sunday, October 15, 2006;

thirsday, didnt go to skool.. stayed home and did art and had tuition in de afternoon.. came back, break fast and did art again.

Friday the 13th was really a disaster!! last day of skool.. reached skool de skool was damn quiet coz only sec 4s.. den had our last mornin assembly which was so crap.. coz there was like a lot of teachers walking ard to check our singing.. den had hair check and mrs choo told me that i must cut my hair.. right! den lak was talking abt our results and like only 10% made it for jc for 1st 3 months? and my class only 1 person made it to jc? lol.. i didnt make it though.. den went art class, where all the disaster came.. she blasted at me like some crazy women.. was quite emotional coz the way she phrase it really hurts me la.. almost cried but hey i didnt ok.. still can stand.. inside me was cursing her.. like she was de one who asked us to ponteng skool if got no art class.. den she scolded me from 740-840.. was a way to start my last day of skool.. finished scolding, she helped me in art.. and yes i was one of the slowest.. she said i btter do sth for the next few days if not ill drop art.. coz my standard from an A has dropped to a D! like wtf.. so spent whole day in art class den went class to collect result slip den went home.. went home slack coz was damn tired due to the nagging and stuffs..

yesterday went malaysia to break fast.. well the jam was damn bad.. due to heavy vehicles.. den went city square where i bought a pair of jeans and a new shirt for hari raya.. total spent abt RM500++ inclusive of my cousin's stuff.. abt SG$240? okay la.. den went to the break fast place st8.. which is a hotel and we were early so my cousins and i ook pics.. den the rest came and break fast.. ate quite a lot! den photo taking before heading to Angsana shopping centre.. walk walk and my eyes were damn tired coz didnt sleep enough previous jight and it was alr 11pm! we headed back to singap[ore and there was a bad jam again.. tried sleeping in de car but couldnt.. reach home at 130am, bathe pray and sleep.

today as planned, woke up at 1030 started art at 11 till 530.. finished most.. left 10 %^ more to go.. okay break fast alr. .gtg.. happy breaking fast pple!

i screamed at 6:46 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Wednesday, October 11, 2006;

aaaaaaarghh.. why am i still affected by what you did? why do i even care so much about you? why do i have this urge of smsing you but i dun dare coz i dun wanna interfere in your life anymore.. why do i keep glancing the memories that we had together? each time i see you online, ill be happy... but... why do i feel that way? it's supposedly over.. she said you wanted to gimme a second chance.. izzit true? i dun think so.. even if its true, ill be de one getting fucking hurt again and i dun dare risk my studies for the relationship.. we only smsed 4 times so far, talked on msn twice since that day.. why must it turn this way? i just wan to be close friends again.. oh well.. maybe that's too much that i can ask for.. sigh..

ok enough emoing.. lol.. so anyway didnt go to skool ytd(tues).. stayed home finish up my art den went print at katong den came back home again.. took a cab down to katong coz i need to reprint then suddenly i realised i dun have de spare money.. i hate it when i dun have spare money.. it just makes me feel insecure.. lol.. and so met nigel at parkway at 540(supposedly 515!).. den did chem tuition homework.. finish up 3 X (paper2 section A papers) in 1h.. den when i ordered food for breakfast, it was freaking slow.. had to wait for dunno how long sia and i was just purposely giving that irritated look and nigel and i was late for tuition!! after tuition rushed back home and did a bit art..

today initially didnt want to go to skool but had to coz was supposed to have this informal class shoot for de magazine.. but.. it was cancelled and so going to skool today was a waste of time.. first 4 periods had pe but changed to practice paper for science.. managed to do most of de qn.. den recess den supposedly art for 5 periods but she went back coz i heard she not feeling well or sth.. so me firdaus and matthew looked for errol for geog revision.. had mt which i did chem paper and eng last 3 periods was so sleepy.. practically only 12 pple were in class? de rest left during recess coz we can just lie our way through and say that we're sec 3s.. so quite a lot left during recess, but i good boy ar.. haha..

after skool went print more stuffs in katong again den headed to sim lim.. got a new cam for hari raya.. haha.. didnt go mosque for some prayer so here i am now.. ok.. gonna dop my art.. scared she asked for it tml.. lol.. that's if im gg to skool..haha.. oh ya.. since tml and fri will be marking days, morning assembly would only be 6 classes + 70+ teachers??? like wtf.. haha.. and confirm if never sing will get suan by lak.. will see how la..

i love 51920211 =)

i screamed at 8:01 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Monday, October 09, 2006;

and soo my day yesterday started off with me waking up at 12 due to my mom nagging saying that i slept too long alr.. like wth.. i slept at 2am the previous morning.. lol.. and still had to wake up for predawn meal and had to go mosque early in de morning forcing my eyes to open coz its sunday morning so i have no valid reason for not going mosque. and soo came back from mosque only at 7 when de sun is rising.. went geylang to get my baju kurung for this yr.. at least this yr something different.. im wearing cream white.. last yr was purple, previous was green.. i've never wear white baju kurung for hari raya before and so im looking forward to it.. but sadly, im gonna celebrate hari raya only for 1 day.. coz o levels is the following week! de bazaar at geylang was spread widely.. was tired walking here and there.. den went maxim's house to do de art den went my grandma's house at bedok.. reached there ard 655 chun chun 2 mins before break fast.. den pray first before eating.. sth different.. yupp.. well a bit weird ar coz im not realy close to them.. but okay ar.. talked a bit before i left.. reached home dowload adobe illustrator den slack ard den went buy cheese fries for supper(at 1130) lol.. den slept at 1am coz i cant sleep dunno why..

today.. didnt go skool.. woke up at 11.. den did my art all the way till 5 before i took a break.. damn exhausted.. almosr done.. hopefully by wed can complete.. oh ya heard today lak went ard 4E classes to talk.. heard my class got pushups.. like WTF.. did badly for prelims and pushups? and i think de whole level did quite badly just that he's more biased towards my class.. i ddint go.. but i heard im supposed to collect my results personally from him.. like wad crap.. he sooo gonna nag cum scold cum pushups.. whatever.. will just see whether he reall ywanna see me.. ok.. i envy those schools that the teachers give extra notes and even moderate their marks.. but oh well.. difficult to compare.. haha.. ok.. gtg.. byez..

i screamed at 8:46 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Saturday, October 07, 2006;

hmm.. just finish doing art so here i am taking a break.. didnt go skool for the past week since wednesday.. stayed home.. tried to complete my art but still not yet complete.. left abit here and dere.. actually not abit la.. alot.. and deadline is this friday!! yesterday break fast in town den went watch movie World trade centre.. it was quite ok la but a bit draggy ar they keep talking here and dere like nobody's business.. it was supposed to be solemn but got funny parts.. and omg it looks damn real la.. except for one part la.. which makes it look so fake.. ok..

as we all noe, Grad night will be held at Holiday Inn Parkview.. it seems like a nice hotel.. rated 5 star.. yupp.. well hopefully it will be a memorable one.. haha.. and my class planned sth to take revenge on the teachers.. especially camel, dim sum and nirvana not forgetting the josephian teacher.. lol.. this week last week of skool liao.. but i dun think ill be gg skool everyday.. im gonna miss the times in skool.. 4 years passed so far.. well.. honestly, the best yr was sec 2 where everything was great for me.. except for studies.. wasted..

prelims result like fuck. i envy those pple who made it to first 3 months.. honestly, i dun wanna go for de 3 months thingy also.. would rather stay at home aNd enjoy life.. haha.. for those who made it, congrats, those who didnt, never give up as o level is the one that is more important.. haha.. and you.. i noe you dun believe that my L1R5 is abt the same as you.. you think you're de only one that can achieve such results? even though i may not be as good as you but i noe i improved.. so stop gg ard and gossip to other people saying that you dun believe wad i get for my results.. after getting result slip, ill show you!

hmm.. well.. is there such thing as god mom god sis god bro or whatever? well.. i dunno.. but i myself have a god mom 2 god sis and 3 god bro.. but.. due to some personal issues, my relationship with one of them fluctuates.. and we're related just by name.. if we walked past each other, we'll be like starngers.. is this wad you call god siblings? i seriously dunno.. i hate this to happen.. oh well.. sometimes things are beyond our controll.. like de saying 'it takes two hands to clap' wad's de point of one side pushing when the other side is not? k im talking crap.. gotta do art again.. byez!

i screamed at 2:57 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Friday, October 06, 2006;

friends survey

before i go for mosque, i did this survey which is quite crappy and quite true!! have fun..

1) Hilmi
2) Nicholas
3) Madini
4) Aidil
5) Alan
6) 51920211 =)
7) Eric
8) Rahim
9) Farah
10) Hidayah
11) Jonathan Chow
12) Sean Lim
13) Cornelius

How did you meet 10?
err… primary school?
What would you do if you had never met 1?
I wouldn’t be wad I am today? Coz he gave me lots of advice
What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
OMG!! NO!
Have you ever seen 4 cry?
nope.. he’s a strong nephew of mine.. lol
Do you think 10 is cute?
haha.. act cute?
How did you get to know 8?
Band?
Would you ever go on a date with number 12?
NO! NEVER!
What's 7's Favorite color?
How the hell would I noe..
What would you do if 6 confessed he/she loves you?
HAHA.. confessed alr.. oops!
Fact about 9:
a Queen CANNOT MAKE IT?
Who is 4 going out with?
I dunno..
who is number 5 to you?
one of my best friends
Would you ever live with 13?
hmmmmmmmmmm………. Nah..
Is 2 single?
NO! lol..
What do you think about 3?
he loves to sing..
What's the best thing about number 8?
can disturb him..
What do you like about number 11?
errrr..
Favorite Memory with 6?
errrr.. too many alr.. lol.. =)

haha.. that's all for now.. and i seriously didnt read the question first! k gtg mosque.. byez..

i screamed at 1:05 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Wednesday, October 04, 2006;

as we all know that prelims are freaking over quite long ago.. and de sec 4 classes including mine seem quite short during morning assembly.. haHa.. and my class attendance never reached 30 after prelims.. haha.. like 26, 27? and its like taking turns to chao skool.. and
reasons for chaoing:
1) prelims are over
2) studying at home is better
3) wanna pay back lack of sleep during prelims (LOL)

and mr lee will den repeat himself "for those of you who here, im glad you guys come to skool.. for those who don't pls tell them that mr lee remind the class that after prelims is the major time for you to come to skool...." and that starts nagging and repeat himself for the dunno how many times! ok whatever.. next week is last week of skool.. mixed feeling? i think so.. happy coz finally out of skool sad coz gonna miss the company and scared coz o levels is darn near! 34 more days! prelims result, as expected was sucky.. i hate this but im gonna blame it on the freaking paper.. seriously.. didnt go skool today.. stayed home did chem and gonna do my art next.. deadline is next week and that fella still havent get back to me whether or not its possible! hope can sia if not im dead.. oh ya camel was a big bastard ytd.. he took S phone and flash it under de visualizer as he read the inbox.. coz S was caught using phone.. lucky for S, there was nothing much inside de phone.. and his face damn guilty and quite scared la.. ok.. if it was me, ill feel the same too! and wasted 2 freaking period bastarding S.. ok whatever.. gotta go now.. need complete my art!

Things that i've learnt:
1) Never base a relationship on SMS!
2) Don't give your everything in a relationship unless certain that she/ he is the one..
3) Never SMS in Salleh's class..
4) Never do last minute art coz im struggling now..
5) i love 51920211.. =)

BYE PEOPLE!!

i screamed at 2:55 PM with 0 piles of homework left

Sunday, October 01, 2006;

MY FREAKING COMPUTER IS DEPRIVING ME FROM STUDYING!!!! haha.. aiyo.. when my com down i complain, when my com working i complain.. lol.. but seriously le..i just dun have de full discipline to study.. even though i started studyin alr.. take for example ytd, i plan to complete abt 5 chapters of chem i ended up completing only 3 topics and headed for de com.. worst of all, i spend the remaining hours playing com instead of studying.. to think abt it, i have abt 37 days to start of o's.. excluding science practical.. and 37 days is not that long! its freaking short.. it felt as it was only last month that i sat for PSLE.. serious.. oh well.
another thing that is bothering me from studying is the fasting month.. im not gonna rant or complain but its just.............. uuurrgh! depriving me form studying again.. tried doing maths ytd and i ended up staring at the question coz i couldnt think.. its not that i do not noe how to do, but my brain just couldnt function properly.. coz after break fast, i retried doing the question and i manage doing it! considering that fasting will take up almost 3/4 of the day, i have no choice.. lol..

I'VE BEEN HAVING NIGHTMARES!! well.. its not those kind of nightmares where tha ghost catch you or whatever crap.. its a nightmare coz i've been dreaming abt me being in a weird situation.. like.. we started becoming friends, which i doubt it will happen.. and i was late for my maths paper.. initially i thought it was o levels paper but then it was sec 3 EOY.. i was like... eerr.. WTF am i doing here.. de weird thing, the people surrounding me were my batch and not the sec 3s this yr.. izzit a blast from the past? considering that i was never late for any exams.. coz when i have a feeling of becoming late, i would just take a cab.. ok enough crap..

well here how my week goes.. monday received the sciences.. not very happy with it but i expected the results.. monday is one of my most hatred days coz i have 3X 4 freaking periods.. chem lab, mt(free period) and physics lab.. there's like no lab so ya stayed in class and i cant eat anymore MnMs to keep me awake.. tuesday i didnt go skool.. coz was lazy and tired.. haha.. wednesday is my favourite day.. its like 'homeroom' so practically every subject must change location.. lol.. ok a bit the jakun.. now there's like no more PE lesson and they changed it to doing practice papers.. so had SS paper.. SBQ on merger.. well i didnt studied.. Art was okay 5 freaking period but not too bad.. MT was free period and then English had to do letter writing.. which i fell asleep the last 5 mins.. after skool, met mr sanusi to order my boar den spend too much time deciding where to go before i headed home.. think the est went home too.. was freaking tired.. thursday didnt go skool.. was seriously sick.. got MC.. but i noe i miss a lot. Friday art was only 5 of us.. lol.. did our prepatory boards.. combined humans was depressing and mt was slack.. as usual we talked among ourselves as we're no more part of the malay class den she like 'the boysat the back pls quiten down'.. den we were like 'wad's de point of being in the class when we cant talk?' haha.. we just continued talkin very loudly.. can see her face looking annoyed. lol. after mt was chem lab all the way.. last minute so had no PC.. didnt noe he was so good to actually let us use the lab.. lol.. did 2000 and 2002 paper.. was quite confusing but i noewad was happening.. den left for mosque before proceeding to settlers till 6 den headed home.. yesterday did nth much.. stayed home and study.. today woke up at 12.. finish up reading the book den here i am.. k gonna study chem now.. hope can finish at least 4 topics.. lol.. bye people..

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE SEATING FOR END OF YEAR EXAM AND THOSE SEATING FOR GCE N LEVEL EXAMINATION.. all the best..

i screamed at 1:59 PM with 0 piles of homework left